Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Thinking Out Loud
I been thinking a lot. Probably too much. I have a tendency to over think things. Just ask Sweetheart. I've been thinking about "how I've always done it" and "how things are done now".
I'm learning to rephrase and rethink past automatic responses, but it isn't easy. I think (!) I need to do it, or I just might go crazy living here in Planet Idaho. Because, seriously, it's another world here in the middle of nowhere.
I don't miss what most people might think I'd miss. I mean, I do miss Target and Starbucks being 15 minutes away instead of two hours. Some conveniences are nice. But I just don't feel like making the effort even when the opportunity arises to go. I don't really care about that old way of life anymore. Besides, it sure saves money not going there!
I miss my dear friends, of course. I miss hanging with my best friends once a month at least. But I'm not lonely here. Not even like I felt for so many years in the city. Plus, I know I still have those dear friends even if I can't just see them when I want. It's ok. It's different.
I am thinking about other, bigger ideas and ways of viewing life. This isn't meant in any way to demean city life, or all the people choosing differently. A lot of what I'm thinking about probably applies to everyone.
I've been thinking about "trying vs. training", "instincts vs. experts", "perfect vs. done", "routines vs. schedules", "entertaining vs. hospitality", and more. Most of these thoughts have come up from various other bloggers and I'll try to add links later. But, it is likely that some of the original posts and where I've gone with them, may no longer resemble one another. (I am trying to "pin" relevant posts where I can find them later, so as to not have the brain fade I am currently operating under.)
I could type for hours on all these things, but the reality of life is that nap time is almost over, the tortillas I made need wrapping and freezing, the boys want to make cookies today, and I should sweep the floor for the 100th time this week. All this to say, I'll probably try to tackle each one of these pairs of thought in its own posts.
I have so much I want to write and share and it all gets lost in the dailiness of life. But I don't want to miss this. I think, somehow, it's more than me just needing to get out more. Life has changed so much these last few years and I want to somehow articulate, maybe just for my own sake, what those changes mean and where to go from here.
Was able to track the post on "Trying vs. Training" I read that has me thinking about a lot of life in light of this. Feel free to read and come back here and tell me your thoughts. :) I'll post more on it soon and would love to bounce the idea around with others.